The goal should be the elimination of habit, to no longer picture one's life as a series of little circles, but rather as a straight line. In this way every event can be novel, when pictured in this way, it encourages one to live in the now, to embrace the present. So then the goal should be to find the novelty in every moment, to push one's own time wave down to zero, or as close to zero as possible. This is the zenish buddhist awareness, a present mindedness that is rare unless achieved with voluminous effort.

This living without habit requires some bravery, for it requires constantly engaging with the unknown whether imagined or actual.

Cigarettes and meals become the ways of delineating time and are the anchors of habit. Signposts that are endlessly identical and therefore bend ones life and time into loops.

I remember how resonant any object could be when I was young, the shape would chime with those things of my imagination and that was enough to spin a narrative that would last hours...pen cap space-ships.